Again and again.

I don't get myself.

I don't understand why do I keep on talking to mother. She's freaking ridiculous, thinks she's right all the time.

And I really really should stop confiding in her. I have never gotten the comforting words or the support than I needed. I get emotional beating instead.

When will I ever learn?

Stop hoping that she will understand and be gentle and support you and hug you, hidayah. She's not that person. Stop hurting yourself.