the happiness project

be happy!

have you ever been so lost,

known the way and still so lost?

those lines are from a song by katy perry - lost.
yup, katy perry is the shiznit yo.
dengar album dulu, then judge.
okay?

so i am lost.
i dont know where i am, which direction im going, or where should i go.
heck, i dont even know if im doing the right thing or not.
im in a strange place where nothing is familiar to me.
and i think im doing well.
i do admit i have emotional outbursts kadang kadang
but im only human.
i cant control these things.

okayy that was a lie.
im not doing well, im not okay.
im scared shitless.
and im sad.
yes, i am.
been listening to indonesian sappy songs for weeks now.

i am not going to justify my actions here,
i dont need to explain myself to anyone.
and i hope people will just.stop.asking.
it's not easy for me, it's not easy for him either.
so let it be, okay?

and thanks for your concern,
appreciate it.
to Friends, i love you.
all of you.
yes, you too idiot.
thank you for cheering me up,
and thank you for keeping me busy all this while.

okay bye.

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p/s: will update blog, soon. promise :p