its all about buble.

havent met you yet

this love (maroon 5 cover)

Hobbity hobit.

I picked up a new habit these last couple of months (okay to be honest I have started doing this since last year), which is (drumroll) reading bridal blogs. You know, those blogs written by bride to bes?

It is definitely beneficial for me as I could see tons of options and I could compare actual results and explore my preferences. Its also a good learning curve so when the time for me to plan for my wedding comes, I'd be well equipped w all the bride to be to-dos.

But sometimes (okay most of the time, really) reading their progress makes me sad. And jealous. Unfortunately, I'm just too nosy so I keep on coming back to see their progress/reviews. And I'll end up feeling depressed w a page full of notes and drawings in front of me.

Oh well, I guess I will just keep on waiting and praying. Could you kindly pray for me too, please? I hate to say this, but time is running out. I really really would like to have my dad marry me off to zimster. And he's (dad, not zimster) getting weaker and weaker day by day ;(

No, that's not the main reason I want to get married soon. We've been together for 6 years and we are sooo freaking ready. Like, what else is there? I hope all the roadblocks will clear up soon so I could peacefully path my way to the altar. InsyaAllah.

Thank you for reading, I have been wanting to talk about this for so long but couldn't bring myself to it. I'm just too ashamed by my fortune (lack of it, duh) in this department. Everytime the topic comes out my eyes would be ever ready to cry me a river LOL dramatic, I know.

I hope good news will magically sprung itself before raya so when nosy relatives ask about when I'm going to get married at least I will have an answer. I pity my parents whenever they were asked questions about this. They don't know, how would they know? Leave them alone, please. Well, the fact that everybody in my world knows that I've been in a relationship w the same guy for 6 years is not helping, of course. Oh whatevs. Que sera sera.

Owkayyy I better stop now or this could go on forever.

Have a nice day, sweethearts :)

from now on, i will

Buurrrrpppp.

Dear food in my tummy,
Please vanish into thin air.
Thank you.

waiting sucks.

especially when the person youre waiting for is taking his own sweet time in getting to where you are.

oh well.

and the wait continues.

the voice within.

"just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesnt mean they dont love you w everything they have."

umm thats what my inner self just told me.

yeah im that weird, i talk to myself and myself talks back sometimes.

i say, hmm okay.

acapella okay?

high expectations.

i have such high expectations for every day and they all turn out the same.

now im starting to think that it's just how life is and that's fine.

if it really is true that each day is a close replica of the previous, i just have to make sure that each day is well spent and then i wont have much to regret.

Super weekend.

Movies I watched:
-clueless
-there's something about mary
-madu 3

Places I went:
-subang parade
-subang airport
-jalan changkat
-petaling street (for the first time in my life)
-lookout point (also first time)
-the curve

Things I did:
-watched some good tv
-kepoh lunch at dave's deli
-romantic dinner at havana
-walked about petaling street (bought nothing)
-climbed the stairs and breathed the chill air at the lookout point
-slept for more than 9 hours (both saturday and sunday nights)
-karaoke at redbox w liz and @hushpls (third karaoke session this week)
-fetched the parents from kampung at the airport
-had a fight w abikizal cuz he messed about w my stuff
-threading (second time in my life)
-had ice cream from baskin robbins (chocolate and strawberry cheese cake)
-watched the first half of the charity shield match
-gained 2kgs

I had time for myself, had an amazing date w the boyfriend, took siblings out to lunch and hung out w friends. Yeayy :)

Simply marvellous.

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thinspiration part five.

you wont get there by making excuses.

you wont get there by feeling guilty about a binge.

you wont get there by eating the food you know are bad.

you wont get there without exercising.

you wont get there while just thinking about it.

you wont get there while just by imagining it.

youll get there by doing it.

note: check out my thinspiration series if youre into this. links are on the right column.

piloxing.

piloxing = pilates + boxing.

its quite similar to my aerokick classes, but this one requires more stretching while boxing and kicking. hence, more toned body.

fun eh? ;)

Life is a battlefield.

My everyday battle is to remain calm.

And oh, to resist food :P

wishful thinking.

i feel under utilized, but i have no energy left to keep this going.

i wonder if just stop trying, will things be the same?

better? or, worse?

but like my good friend always said to me, im too scared to try something new. so ill just continue doing whatever im doing now and keep a straight face.

i wish i am some independent, strong and self sufficient lady. someone who is able to exist without regular doses of romance or flattery from her partner. someone who would gladly receive love and affection whenever offered, but would step aside and take care of herself whenever her partner drifted off into his own universe until he misses her again.

anyway, i wish we dont have three fish ponds and a aquarium around the house. and oh, two turtles. or tortoise, whatever.

cuz i want a cat. i have this need of being w someone at all times. yeah im that clingy.

so im guessing ill be happier if i have a cat on my own, so we can cling to each other at all times. the idea of having someone i can talk to, without having the other party talk back is kind fun too haha

till i become strong enough to be a self feeder as described above, im going to continue to whine here in my blog, and believe that the beautiful picture on my mind will come true one day :)

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