hi.

so umm im not into expressing my feelings anymore.

ive realised that happiness is a choice, so im not gonna read into things too much and just LIVE. you know?

im not closing down this blog though, as this was a part of me, a part that i cherished. a lot :)

okay wait, who am i kidding? i looovveee expressing myself haha in fact, i do it all the time on twitter. but im not going into that emotional hole anymore. ive read somewhere that we should do more of what makes us happy.

and i found that happy place. tumblr. yea yea i know, ive dissed tumblr before for being unoriginal and yadda yadda haha but i guess you dont have to be yourself all the time, right? i mean, this life is not all about you. life is not about love, either. its about roles. whether you understand your roles and whether you carry them out or not.

soooo, i want to be a happy person. hence, im gonna do what keeps me happy more often. that is to spend time looking at beautiful pictures and reblogging them LOL

if youre interested to see my collection of happy pictures, come and visit me at www.hidsie.tumblr.com :)

till then,

xx

it's all in your head.

Forget about your life situation for a while and pay attention to your life.

Your life situation exists in time. Your life is now.

Your life is real.

Find the "narrow gate that leads to life". It is called the Now. Narrow your life down to this moment. Your life situation may be full of problems - most life situations are - but find out if you have any problem at this moment.

Not tomorrow or in 10 minutes, but now. Do you have a problem now?

When you are full of problems, there is no room for anything new to enter, no room for solution. So whenever you can, make some room, create some space, so that you find the life underneath your life situation.

-Page 31, Practicing the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

A MUST READ :)

today i dont feel like doing anything

having the monday blues?

listen to the lazy song! :)

The Last Lecture

i've read this book and i LOVED it.

a must read for everyone :)

below is a forwarded email i received on the summary of the book.

enjoy!

xx

This is amazing, Randy Pausch 47 yrs old, A computer Sc. lecturer from Mellon Universityhe died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book "The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind.
In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.
May you be blessed by his insight.


POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

:)

blogger template.

okay im sick of this template already.

must.change.soon.

always.

i want to touch the depth of your soul

with my words massaging your heart

and tickle your mind with a poem or two

a sonnet, maybe some letters to you

oh, the truth is

i just want to be in your arms.

Cleaning up my soul.

There are things that have to be forgotten if you want to go on living.


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Thursday.

There is an explosion inside of me. Words, thoughts, lyrics and unfinished poems.

Wish I have all the time in the world to write them down.

Or just stare into space and enjoy watching the arrays of words dancing before my eyes.

Oh well :)


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:)

Our souls collide
My dreams are now real
And for us, time stands still.

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i may look calm.

but in my head ive killed you three times.

thinspiration part nine.

dont tell yourself "i can start tomorrow".

tell yourself "i will start today".

and then tomorrow it will be two days, and then three.

and it will get easier.

tell yourself "im going to wake up lighter tomorrow than i did today".

Face the facts.

You're a little too old to be hiding around the bushes.

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pass me the cook book.

i need to learn how to cook.

MUST.learn.

:(

uptight much?

yo yo yo yo yo yeah imma talk like this imma pretend im a knee-grow cuz im flyyyyy like that.

okay scratch that.

i realized ive been uptight lately, lol silly grumpy old me.

but imma get my mojo back.

you just wait.

or dont.

whatever.

okthanksforyourtimebye.

goodbye posters, hello empty wall.

found a paper cutting that says,

TO-DO LIST:

- give others compliments

- accept compliments

- figure out what you want out of life and go get it

- be around people who encourage your goals

DONT:

- put yourself down

- worry about nothing

- hang around with people who bring you down

some things are just gotta be told no matter how simple, eh? ;)

oh look, thats a picture of me graduating kindergarten in indonesia. i still look the same right? see, told yah, i havent aged even a day :P

goodnight, xx